Monday, February 27, 2012

How much can you hold inside?

I try to be strong for everyone.  I try not to unload on everyone, I don't even unload on my spouse.  But today kind of put me over the edge.

I woke up and could barely get out of bed.  I cannot remember ever having pain like this.  I went to the ED because I couldn't stand it.  After Xrays, and the doc showing me that I have an extra vertebrae and a bunch of degeneration and arthritis.   It just bothered me.  He believes I have Sciatica, and that tweeking my back, just made the arthritis worse.

Then I took Roxy to the vet.  I wanted to get her annual checkup, and get her scheduled for a teeth cleaning.  She has had a little bump on her side for a month or so, I pointed it out and the vet became quite concerned.  After she did a needle aspiration she came back and told me that it was a Mast Cell Tumor.  We scheduled surgery for Weds. morning.  I am blown away.  I had a big ole cry........Between work, Daddy, the Board, my new back issues, and now Roxy............I don't know how much more?!?!?


I love this dog.  She loves me, and I have never loved another creature like this.  I don't know what I will have to do, or spend, but I am gonna take care of her.  Please God..........